I am the master of shoving crap to the back of my brain and focussing on what is immediately in front of me. Whatever happens to be going on around me...I just need some place to send my brain and voila! Mental chaos averted! I thank God for this talent, as there is always some form or chaos or drama or crazy going on in these here parts...Last year alone (in addition to sick hubby) January started with me smoking a J-Walker! February - HUGE behavior issues with oldest DD which carried through till March - in April, we lost Lucy, and I rear ended a guy when the gas pedal on Moms car took off on me...in May we got Daisy...but found out in June that she had a bad hip...and on and on and on....one thing after another - straight through till January of this year when the Well exploded etc. and Drama and chaos continue to make frequent and unwelcomed appearance. Anyway, there is always something and so - God gave me the ability to focus on other stuff to give my brain a place to go. The trouble is...when you are always shoving stuff into a place - at some point you need to take time to clear it out. I haven't done that in a while and I'm pretty sure I'm full. Had I known what more was coming, though...I would have cleaned up a little.
Dad had a heart attack on Saturday - the day before his birthday. He's still in Saint John, and is stable - but he needs a by-pass and Dr's are waiting for his heart to get a little stronger, though, before they can go in. He's in for a loooong road. Dad is a great big guy with diabetes and 1 kidney - who drives truck for a living and reeely likes his groceries. If he makes it through this, I know the needed lifestyle changes will not be easy for him. I can only hope and pray that he pulls through with flying colors and we benefit from many more healthy and happy years together...or my heart will be broken forever.
Anyway - if you have any prayers in you, please send one up for my Dad...and if you happen to run into me in the next little while and I spontaneously burst into tears...or am a total space cadet...or start rambling about nonsense - bare with me - m'kay? Cuz I'm pretty full right now.